I can't help but be a little emo about it, so forgive me if I suddenly look wistful or even start bawling if you happen to meet me in the coming month haha..
Everyday for the past 8 years, I've wondered if I was a good mother, or if I could ever be a good enough mum for her. Every. Day.
I wonder if she has enough to eat, I wonder if she has enough sleep, I wonder if I'm spending enough time with her, I wonder if I'm being too harsh on her, I wonder if I'm teaching her good manners, I wonder if I should read more to her, I wonder if she has enough help with her school work, I wonder if she has too little time to play, I wonder if she is being bullied, I wonder if SHE is the bully... sigh. I'm sure all parents can relate??
I can't even keep a plant alive. How do I raise a little human being with no prior experience, no training, and no real control on life's curve-balls?
Some days though, I feel that I'm doing all right.
Days like the ones where I receive small but significant messages like these below..
This year, the boy messaged that Lil Pumpkin actually used her own money & bought flowers for him, so that he can give them to me and make me happy!!! Oh what did I do to deserve such a sweet, darling daughter??!
Yes, I may not be a perfect mother, but I must be doing something right to raise such a sweet, kind and loving girl.
Actually, WE.. the boy and I, are doing something right together as her parents. The boy doesn't speak of it much, but I know sometimes he does have doubts over his fatherhood skills too.
I just want him to know that he is an awesome dad, and I would never be able to survive this parenting jig without him. He is my support, and my strength on the toughest days and I'm really grateful that he's always been hands-on and involved in taking care of Lil Pumpkin from Day 1. Thank you for loving the both of us so, so much.
We're doing all right as parents, Poogeo... we're doing all right. Our dear Lil Pumpkin is living proof of that.