We attended a friend's, Uncle Wills, wedding last Saturday. I knew Uncle Wills way back before you were born and because of our busy schedules, Mummy and Uncle Wills kept in touch mainly through Facebook, although we'll bump into each other at social gatherings sometimes because we have the same circles of friends.
Mummy and Uncle Wills will always say "let's meet up soon, let's meet up soon" but we never really did. And then time passed by and it's been 5 years since we intentionally met up - at his wedding no less. Felt really happy that despite our distance and lack of communication the past few years, Uncle Wills still remembered me enough to invite me to celebrate his special day with him :)
The last time Uncle Wills saw you was when you were still a wee little baby, and now, you've grown into such a sweet young girl. Beautiful, precocious and extremely inquisitive. Sometimes I wonder where you get all her energy from, and when I will run out of energy to keep up with you!
Time waits for no man, no matter how much I lament how fast it goes. I can't stop it, and I can't stop you from growing older, but I can be more mindful about how I spend my time with you. Sometimes I feel really guilty that I can't be there with you throughout the day because of work. And even when I'm physically there with you, I sometimes get so caught up fervently capture your growing up moments in words or film to make up for missing some milestones, that I forget to be there emotionally or mentally. I'm sorry.
You may not remember much from the past 5 years, but I'm sure you can from this age forward. I want to be part of your memories, not just the memory maker. The person in your photos with you, not just the one taking the photos. The one dancing and singing all your crazy songs with you, not just the one filming it. The person reading the books with you, not just the one who bought them.
As you get older, I know that you'll probably not want Mummy in your life as much as you do now. That's ok, as that's what happens when kids grow up and be independent.
But in the future, as you look back in your childhood days, I want you to remember that Mummy was there by your side learning, reading, playing and living life together with you. Just like how your grandma was with me.
Love you always,
Lovely, candid shots taken by Alwyn.