Dear Lil Pumpkin,
Last Thursday on the morning ride to school, you had a quick nap in the car, as you always do. Sorry to sound like a stalker, but Mummy loves watching you sleep. You look so peaceful and cute with your cherub face, long eyelashes and little pout.
It's hard to imagine that you can go from looking like a sweet angel sleeping to a noisy little monster sometimes. But it happens, and I wouldn't change it any other way ♥
Suddenly, you started whimpering though. Perhaps you were having a bad dream and I patted you gently to get you to sleep better. It didn't help and you started to sob inconsolably. This has never happened before!
I woke you up seeing that it must be a horrible nightmare and hugged you tightly, trying to see if you could tell me what upset you so much. Still crying, you told me and Daddy that you dreamt that we were looking after another girl, and you felt that we abandoned you and didn't want you anymore.
Oh silly child!! That will never happen!! Mummy and Daddy will never stop loving you and deep inside your heart of hearts, you must know this. For the rest of the journey to school, we reassured you that Mummy and Daddy will never abandon you, and that we love and cherish you so much.
You seemed all right and "back to normal" once you stepped out to go for class. Some people say that dreams portray our innermost fears and desires, or are like letters from our unconscious minds.
Your nightmare got Mummy reflecting. Daddy said I shouldn't bother about it too much but still I couldn't help thinking...
Have I not been showing you enough that I love you? Have I not been telling you enough that I love you? Have I been saying too many angry things that make you think that I don't care about you? Am I a neglectful mother?? Have you been secretly feeling that way for a long time but never told us?
I'm sorry if Mummy ever made you feel that unimportant, scared and unloved. I will always be by your side, whether in person or spirit, protecting and loving you. And I promise to make a more conscious effort to explicitly express that to you, be fully present, and not say or do things that I will regret and make you feel hurt and abandoned.
I'm sure your Daddy feels the same way too.
Do not doubt our love for you, my dear. I hope you will never have this nightmare again.
Love you always,