This year, I took a step back from a lot of things. Well, actually it's been a while that I've been trying to cut back on work and blogging commitments to focus on the family and personal growth, but you'd probably have noticed that it's even more so this year.
And honestly, I do love it.
There is more time to bring Lil Pumpkin to the playgrounds, cook for the family, hold conversations and listen, exercise, read.. and sometimes even just do nothing at all.
My daily schedule doesn't seem any less packed, but it definitely feels much less "rushed", if you understand what I mean. I'm not always racing to tick off an item on my to-do list, and can actually happily relish in the moment I'm in.
I recently read an article about Gurmit Singh leaving the entertainment industry in 2014 to spend time with his family. Actually I don't really watch local TV so didn't realise that he did #oops But he said something about a painful epiphany when he learnt his elder daughter thought of him a “mythical creature” during her growing years. She never knew when he was leaving, or coming home, he explained.
I don't want Lil Pumpkin to ever think of me in such a way, and although I still can't ideally take care of her full-time since I'm still working, at least I'm present more. And knowing that I'm around more for her, and doing more of what I like, makes me feel happier, and more positive.. which rubs off on the people around me I guess.
It feels like a good place that I'm at right now ♥